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Psalm 40

My Sunday school class finished a study of the Psalms the week before last.  A couple of months ago, we looked at Psalm 40, a beautiful Psalm about trusting God and His renewal and rescue from trouble.  Around the same time, I was feeling bummed out, and the first several verses of this Psalm were very comforting.  And what do you know, I happened to be at a point between compositions…so I decided to create a choral piece.

I actually started with a verse later in the Psalm to open it up–I think it makes the waiting on the Lord section that much more meaningful to hear first that yes, the psalmist is/was in some kind of trouble–he isn’t going on about God’s goodness during the happiest time in his life.  God is faithful even during the storms of life.

PDF score: Psalm 40

Listen here


Be pleased, oh Lord, to save me;
Oh, Lord, come quickly to help me.
Be pleased, oh Lord, to save me;
Oh, Lord, come quickly to help me.

I waited on the Lord;
He turned to me.
I waited patiently on the Lord;
He turned and heard my cry!

He lifted me out of the slimy pit,
Out of the mud and mire.
He set my feet upon a rock,
And gave me a firm place to stand.

He put a new song in my mouth,
A hymn of praise to God.
Many will see and fear (many will see and fear),
Many will see and fear (many will see and fear),
Many will see and trust in the Lord.

May all who seek You rejoice, Lord.
May all who seek You rejoice and be glad in You.





Honor Harrington

Ahhh….I finally get to post a new piece again!

My Roland Edirol UA-25 EX USB AudioCapture (isn’t that an exciting name?) arrived last week, along with its bundled copy of Sonar 8.5 LE…and then I subbed the next two days, so I had to wait till Friday to start playing with it.  And then had to figure out why it would only play every other note and only a few instruments.  And then yesterday, had to figure out how to get the audio out of Sonar while still sounding like it was supposed to.  And today had to discover how to use envelopes for various elements in an equalizer so I could eliminate hiss without making the full sections sound muted.

But after letting this piece sit for almost two months, waiting for the new technology I needed to be able to hear it in all its glory, it’s finally done!

This cue is for an envisioned scene — envisioned only, there are no plans so far as I know for anyone to turn these books into movies, and they sure haven’t asked me to score them! — at the opening of David Weber’s book “On Basilisk Station.”  The scene opens in space, watching a shuttle approaching the huge space station orbiting the planet Manticore, then cuts inside the shuttle to Nimitz, a treecat, sitting on Honor’s lap.  The camera pans up to Honor’s face, at which point she stands, thinking excitedly about her new command on her first hyper-capable warship, and exits the shuttle.  As she walks along, she thinks a little uneasily about her mentor’s seeming discomfort while he told her about her new ship.  Nimitz bites her ear to get her to stop worrying, and she smiles, thinking happy thoughts again.  She arrives at the “gate” and stares in awe at “Fearless,” the light cruiser of which she is now in command.  Tearing her eyes away, she walks over to the sentries at the boarding tube, gives them her orders & credentials, and enters zero-G to travel to the ship.

Listen to the wave file

PDF Score: Honor Harringtonv2

The Blessedness of Not Knowing

The blessedness of not knowing
Would never have crossed my mind
As something incredibly desirable
Or even a blessing.

I like to know
I want to see
I feel safe with control.

But when all my supports disappear
And I find myself grasping at straws
Desperate for a rock to cling to
(Forget trying to stand),
I find great peace and freedom
In simply trusting my God
And relinquishing control,
Letting go of the need to know.

I cannot see tomorrow;
I cannot even see this afternoon
(Forget my whole future!)

Instead, I am learning to trust,
To simply trust God to show me the next step
Neither too soon, nor too late,
But in His perfect timing.

It is hard.  I want to see.

But my only hope is in trusting my Rock,
In surrendering my all to Him
In not trying to second-guess
But laying aside speculation
And asking Him for the grace
To be satisfied with my daily bread
And to follow my Shepherd
Like a gentle lamb,
My own desires laid aside.

Oh, how hard!  I want…

But I want Jesus
I tire of complacency
I want reality
I want to know
And I find what I want, ironically,
Through the blessedness of not knowing.


My next project is choral, so I need lyrics…lyrics…so I was looking through old poems to see if any of them could be adapted.  Don’t know if I could make a song out of this one, but I like it. 🙂

Music & Movement

Well, another week gone by, and still no way to produce mock-ups…In the meantime, here are some more “old pieces” from Composition II: Music and Movement.

To try to relate music to movement, we used the eight basic efforts and four “drives” from the Laban movement theory.  They are derived from the continuums of space, time, weight, and flow, basically…The usefulness is by noting which characteristics the action has (pressing, flicking, wringing, dabbing, slashing, gliding, thrusting, floating) and then looking at the definition of each for where it lies on the continuum so the music can be written to possess those qualities.  Confused yet?  Yeah, the only reason I was able to list what I did was b/c I pulled out my old Laban for All book.  It was a little mind-bending when I was in the class; after not thinking about it for several years, I definitely can’t explain the theory right.

First, Vision drive: “weightless”  Revolves around time, space, and flow.  In this little scene created & performed by a couple of CCC Laban grad students, a little girl is running from something in a dream.  She discovers a sentient tree that calms her down and sends her back into a peaceful sleep.
Video: .mov file
Or, for those of you would like music only, you can listen to the .mp3here
And, of course, the score 🙂 :Vision Dance

Next, Spell drive: “timeless”  Revolves around weight, space, and flow.  In the first scene, created & performed by CCC Laban grad students, a girl loses herself in the story she is reading.  She meets a creature or two and a fairy before wandering back to reality.
Video: .wmv file
And the .mp3 for those of you who want it
And score: Spell Dance

Finally, another Spell drive.  This scene (created & performed, once more, by a CCC Laban grad student) is a bit odd…the girl catches a bird, crushes it, and eats it, after which she transmogrifies into a bird herself.  Like I said, weird.  I didn’t actually do this one for an assignment–it was something to keep me busy and writing later during the semester.
Video: .wmv file
The .wav file
And score: Spell Transmogrification

Thanks for reading/listening!

Time Gone By: When I Knew How to Score

I finished cleaning up the score for my newest choral & piano piece based on Psalm 40 today (I limited to myself to SATB–four parts only!), but since I still don’t have a solution for Sonar, the printed manuscript will have to sit in my binder for a bit longer while I start on the next project (haven’t decided what yet…).  Of course, Sibelius has decided to start acting up now. *rhe*  Nothing much–I just can’t set the Devices to use the MIDI input from my keyboard (it locks up when I try to close the dialog).  Which means I have to “type” in all my notes instead of playing them in–that means typing “A” on my laptop keyboard for an “A”, a “3” to stack the note a third above an “A”, and a “4” to stack a note an interval of a fourth above that to get an F chord in first inversion and then using Ctrl-up or down to adjust to a different register if necessary instead of simply hitting all three notes in the correct octave at the same time.  Slightly more time involved, but it works.

Since I finished a piece and didn’t feel like deciding just yet what I’ll start on tomorrow, I decided to take the time to hunt down a few of my old .wav files.  Ah, when I knew how to score!  When I could make a mock up without even trying, hardly!  *sigh*  Of course, maybe if I had bothered to PRACTICE more during the last three years, I’d still be able to, neh?

First, the final assignment for my Dramatic Scoring class my first semester in grad school: Lydie Breeze.  The scene was NOT something I wanted to watch twenty gazillion times (necessary for writing good score), but I managed to write a pretty decent piece, anyway.  I’m not sure whether or not I should be horrified that I did such a good job…  Since I don’t like the dialogue that came with the live recording at the concert, I made a MIDI mock up while listening to the live recording and trying my best to match it. *happy sigh*  I LOVE my muted string samples!!  Oh, if only I could make mock-ups like that all the time…  
Listen to the wave 
And, of course, the score 🙂 :Lydie Breeze

Next, the piece that, with Lydie Breeze, I submitted for the ASCAP/Mancini scholarship competition: Motorcycle Chase.  This one was third semester, Music & Movement.  The assignment was to take elements from Stravinsky’s The Rite of Spring and Don Davis’s Matrix score, both of which we had just studied, and create a one-minute action piece.  I had fun with this one. 🙂  I never cleaned up the score, since the assignment was purely for the audio, but here it is if you’re brave: Motorcycle Chase  And the .wav

Last one for today, and then I’ve got to go make supper. 🙂  Also from the Music & Movement class, a chase scene from Bullitt.  This was composed to an actual scene, but I can’t find the video on my external hard drive…so music & score only, I’m afraid.  Same story on the score, so again, if you’re brave: Bullitt  And the .wav

Enjoy! 🙂

Cross Medley

As promised, I actually have an old piece to post!  It’s actually a comparatively recent piece, having just been written near the end of 2010…but it’s not on this site yet. 🙂

I chose this piece in honor of the season (we sang most of the songs in the medley at the Remembrance Service at church last night).  Listening through it today to make sure I had the correct file (can’t find the exported .wav for some reason…), I’m not as pleased with it as I remember being when I wrote it.  Probably has something to do with it being one of the pieces I wrote when I was rusty and trying to get myself back into both composing and creating mock-ups…Unfortunately, as expressed in my previous post, I can’t exactly go back into the mock-up right now and fix it, either, so we’ll just go with what I’ve got. 🙂

Hymns included in the medley:
At the Cross
When I Survey
Lead Me to Calvary
The Old Rugged Cross

You can find the .mp3 here: Cross Medley

And here’s the PDF score: Cross Medley

Technical Difficulties & Uncooperative Schedules

It’s been a while since my last post…and here I planned to post something, even if it was old, once a week!  So much for good intentions, I guess…

I have a “side job” of substitute teaching, and even though I’ve resolved to take fewer assignments so I can have more time to compose, it doesn’t always work out that way.  And even when I don’t sub, there’s no guarantee I’ll work on music!  I have a house to clean, a dog to walk, bookwork to do for the business my brother and I own, grocery shopping to do, and all sorts of distractions that are built in with working at home.  In the music time I’ve managed to squish in, I’ve been working on revising a cue for an imagined movie scene from the beginning of David Weber’s book On Basilisk Station.  (Basically, I scrapped everything except the main theme from my previous cue and started over, which wasn’t such a big deal since it is only a minute and a half long, but it does take additional time to come up with everything when you’re as out of practice as I am!)  I finally got the music written in Sibelius, but about the time I was ready to make the mock-up in Sonar–which was going to be a pain since there’s no way my laptop could have all the samples I wanted loaded at the same time, which means doing it in pieces–my husband persuaded me to invest in a really good deal on a new laptop from, so I decided to wait to do the mock-up until I had the new computer with FOUR gigs of RAM (as opposed to the 1-2 GB on the old laptop–not sure it was really using the extra gig I put in a couple of years ago…).

The computer came about a week later…but then we had to install everything, which always takes forever, and THEN we had to convince my old programs to work in Windows 7.  When we finally had things working–or so I thought–I opened the cue in Sonar and started loading samples.  I loaded 32 with no error messages about low memory and potential issues for my computer.  It was great!…until Sonar and Windows 7 decided they really can’t get along, and Sonar began its protest against the new OS by causing Windows to give me “Sonar has stopped working” messages with disturbing frequency and at the most inconvenient times–since mock-ups in Sonar are all about making existing music sound like music, rather than creating anything new, I mostly work continuously.  There are very few good “pause and let me think” times when it is natural and easy to save and when I won’t have to sit and wait for it to complete the save while I’m in the middle of something.  So either I waste lots of time saving every 30 seconds, or I run the risk of losing several minutes worth of work that I will have to redo later if Sonar quits again before the next time I save.  Add the lost time waiting for the program to unload from the processes so I can open it again, and then wait for it to load the samples so I can start working again…and you have a very inefficient use of work time.

Solution?  Probably going to be buying an external USB audio interface that will double as a better sound card and a MIDI/audio adapter (so I can record! Once I get a microphone) and comes bundled with Sonar LE, a newer version of the software that is actually compatible with 64-bit Windows 7 and hopefully has all the basics that I need for what I do.  But it’s probably going to be at least a couple of weeks before we can coax the money for that out of the budget, so in the meantime, it’s back to the piano to work on a choral piece based on Psalm 40 and to trying to remember to track down .wav files for older pieces that I can post on here (since I’m trying to get away from and therefore may as well post some of my good oldies over here). *sigh*  I love my piano, but…I was reeeaaally looking forward to getting that mock-up done.  What I hear so far sounds SO good, and I’m SO excited about hearing the finished product!  I wanted to get it done first…but no sense wasting time when I could do it more efficiently later. *sniff*

And that’s my pathetic explanation/list of excuses for why I haven’t posted in several weeks–or is it a month yet?  Hopefully, I’ll have an old piece soon.

Till next time,